Dear Beloved Souls:

My story begins in the town of Allerød, Denmark. I remember the purity of happiness and true soul alignment, feeling harmoniously balanced and in touch with myself. This despite living in a intense, emotional and fiery childhood home that resonated more with conflict than stability. When my little sister was born, she faced major health issues and learning difficulties early on. Being raised with regular violent interventions and conflicts between my parents, as well as towards myself and between family members, especially the medical emergencies revolving my sister taught me to be vigilant during difficult times. Maternal family conflicts created a sense of us vs them - insecurity and fearfulness and required me to analyze my surroundings and the emotional states of people around me at most times. Despite this, I stayed strong and felt quite happy overall especially due the extensive friend support network I had, but also due to the musical influence in my life. At the age of 10, a classmate of mine woke me up to other people's beliefs and opinions about me and my mother-figures and it made me think inwardly. Over a short period of time, I went from feeling like the embodiment of sunshine, joy and love, being a highly socially interacting and friend-oriented initiator, into becoming a more introverted, over-thinking emotional teenager who felt out of touch with especially his physical maturity, but very ahead intellectually and creatively. My life entered a darker Moon-like period of time (Vedic sidereal Moon-mahadasha). My family moved to a more secluded place of the town, where the extroverted, progressive and family-like childhood neighbourhood was replaced with a further away, isolated, old-fashioned and socially detached environment. My regular vocal-lead keyboard performances at the local music school turned into technical classical piano taught in a distant cold and dark room in an ancient school building... I became, in a way, somewhat soul-depressed, and it stayed with me for years, until I went to high school.

At my high school in Allerød (Allerød Gymnasium), I felt myself getting back in touch with my childhood self-expression and spot-light. Music carried and protected me, and was an outlet, but also an escape mechanism. During my pre-teenage years, talking and socializing with my female friends was the most normal thing ever. But later on, I didn't understand my friends and class-mates were now pursuing dating etc... Why was this such an important "thing" all of a sudden? So I instead went to lead and excel all musical and sound-related aspects of my high school time. I got plenty of creative attention through my performances and then it mattered less I wasn't mature yet in other ways... So I continued living, breathing and expressing myself entirely through music. But what about my soul, my sunshine self? Well, there were lots of creative and self-expressive light on stage, so I was OK, I thought... This mindset followed me for years. What I didn't know at the time was that my answer to resolving this inner instability between my inner masculine soul and my external feminine mind energies was emerging and subconsciously attracting me towards Vancouver, Canada...

I was conditioned by my Danish heritage and cultural/societal norms to believe that becoming a professional musician was an unrealistic goal, but instead of subscribing to this belief, I started telling people: "I'm going to North America to become a professional musician". And so I did, landing and relocating to Vancouver in 2007/08 and everything that I had envisioned started becoming reality from the very first day. Being a musician isn't always the easiest way of living, but provided me with the opportunity to meet people and get into situations that catalyzed multiple spiritual awakenings and ego-deaths. The break from the world during Covid helped solidify my professional skills of doing astrology readings and spiritual guidance. With my deeply intuitive, big thinking analytical mind, adapting to a new life approach based around soul consciousness was a difficult transition as I had many subconscious wounds left to transmute. I gradually overcame the doubt and skepticism, changes in my belief system, but also faced major health issues and work life/career changes at the same time. Later in 2025, I reached a stable inner union with Self, and felt ready to pursue my soul mission (LAESoul) whole-heartedly. On a more mundane level, I am grateful to be a successful musician performing in Vancouver, BC and other North American cities. I also teach, produce and compose music and run my own business. Yearly, I visit my family in Denmark for a month where I hang out, compose new music and write articles! :-)

Philip

WITHIN

My Journey