Dear Beloved Souls:

My story begins with growing up in Allerod, Denmark. I remember the purity of happiness and true soul alignment, feeling harmoniously balanced and in touch with myself. This despite living in a childhood home that endured many more conflicts than peaceful times. When my sister was born, she was dealing with major health issues and learning difficulties early on. Being raised with regular violent interventions and conflicts between my parents and family members, the medical emergencies revolving my sister taught me to be vigilant during difficult times. Family conflicts on my mother's side also created much intensity, fearfulness and required me to analyze my surroundings, and the emotional states of people around me. Despite all this, I remained strong and felt quite happy overall. At the age of 10, a classmate of mine woke me up to other people's beliefs and opinions about me and my family and it made me think inwardly. Over a short period of time, I went from feeling like the embodiment of sunshine, joy and love being a highly socially interacting and friend-oriented initiator into becoming a quite introverted, over-thinking emotional teenager who felt out of touch with physical and mental maturity, but very ahead intellectually, creatively and self-expressively. My life entered a darker Moon-like period of time. My family moved to a more secluded place of the town - going from extroverted, progressive and nearby surroundings to far away, isolated and old-fashioned. My regular vocal-lead keyboard performances at the local music school turned into technical classical piano taught in a distant cold and dark room in an ancient school building... I became - in a way - soul-depressed, and it stayed with me for years, until I went to high school.

At my high school, I found a way to get back in touch with my outward expressive vibrations. Music helped me greatly - as an outlet, but also an escape mechanism. During my pre-teenage years, talking and socializing with my female friends was the most normal thing ever. I didn't understand my friends and class-mates were now pursuing dating etc. I didn't understand the new vibe... why was this such an important thing all of a sudden? So instead I went to lead and "dominate" all musical and sound-related aspects at my high school. I got plenty of creative attention through my performances and then it mattered less I wasn't mature yet in other ways... So I continued living, breathing and expressing myself entirely through music. But what about my soul, my sunshine self? Well, there were lots of creative and self-expressive light on stage, so I was OK, I thought... This mindset followed me for years. What I didn't know at the time was that my answer to resolving this inner instability between my masculine (soul) and feminine (mind) energies was emerging and subconsciously attracting me towards Vancouver, Canada...

I was conditioned by my Danish heritage to believe that becoming a professional musician was an unrealistic goal, but instead of subscribing to this belief, I eventually told people: "I'm going to North America to become a professional musician". And so I did, landing and relocating to Vancouver in 2007/08 and everything that I had envisioned started becoming reality from the very first day I landed there. Being a musician isn't always the easiest way of life, but provided me with the opportunity to meet people and get into situations that catalyzed multiple spiritual awakenings. The break from the world during Covid helped solidify my professional skills of doing astrology readings and spiritual guidance, and I was granted to meet my Monadic Soul counterpart in September, 2021. With my deeply intuitive, big thinking analytical mind, adapting to a new life approach based around soul consciousness was a difficult transition as I had many subconscious wounds to transmute. I underwent several more ego deaths, and overcame doubt, changes in belief systems, major health issues and work life/career changes. Later in 2025, I reached a stable inner union with self, and felt truly ready to pursue my soul mission (LAESoul) whole-heartedly. On a more mundane level, I am grateful to be a successful musician performing in Vancouver, BC and other North American cities. I also teach, produce and compose music and run my own business. Yearly, I visit my family in Denmark for a month where I hang out, compose new music and write articles! :-)

Philip

WITHIN

My Journey